Nanoqian

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2025-12-29

Platau and volume

With most things people become good at they usually platau to a volume of production per day. At this point it depends where they platau. I think a lot of people platau at "Adequate"

So i think the daily volume of work really matters for where you will platau on the table. This seems obvious but this distincts how someone could be doing a consistent amount of work but have glacially slow progress. In this case even if the volume of work is socially impressive, you will still platau at "adequate" or "competent". I think the exact volume of work and the unit of that work depends on the person, it is just needed to reach a new platau. Essentially I assume/guess a platau is just what volume you most consistently produce, and in order to reach a new platau then the volume needs to be increased and then sustained. For progress to happen within a domain you need to normalize for the amount you can retain in order to have "compounding" effects from learning. As skill ranks incrase the assumption is that the retention of information is proportional. I think that you can still have a socially impressive amount of work done each day but still platau at "Adqeuate" or "Competent" which is rewarded enough in my experience. This whole thing is more philosophical then anything well defined but maybe it's helpful, somehow. If i tried to model this it would probably lose some helpfulness since we're just saying in the first place that a learning curve exists. This whole thing is just stuff on top of that. I do use these ideas pretty much every day though

2025-12-27

Project management

Things are kinda hard lately. I feel like everyday has almost no pace. I just react to stuff and do it

2025-12-26

Back

Im back again. Im just working on stuff and feel kinda better. I ate some food and energy drink. Yummy. Also i got more books so im relaxed. But still working on stuff. I didnt work one day and I feel a little better

2025-12-19

Sick

I'm not going to post here for a week because I need to work a lot and the stress is kinda making me sick so i only have energy for work. Oh well

2025-12-17

old games + How I measure skill

ANyway, here is how I measure my skills. Rank Skill Desc 0 Not 0 Dabbling exposure; no reliability 1 Novice needs supervision 2 Adequate can complete standard tasks at min level 3 Competent adapts to small deviations; understands context 4 Skilled consistent output across varied conditions 5 Proficient max level in school optimized performance; min error under pressure 6 Talented intuitive command 7 Adept pattern synthesis begins 8 Expert full autonomy; rapid error correction 9 Professional sustained results 10 Accomplished teaches or manages others 11 Great innovates within domain(s) 12 Master defines standards 13 High Master authority over sub domain 14 Grand Master new paradigms 15 Legendary historical benchmark I like playing old ganes but wow i dont have time like a all. also i get sleepy quickly now.

2025-12-16

panic Attack

I had a panic attack type thing and it waws pretty exhausting. I wasnt even stressed or anything so i dont really know wjhat that happnened. Anyway Now im just confused?? and trying to do work . so yeah.

2025-12-15

Walking around

Sometimes I wish i could just walk around and stand near the convinence store but im usually too busy. Also Im too scared of other people cuz when I need to work i get bad mood so i can't talk to people. If it outside it sound really uncomfrotable cuz weather and like im trying to manage myself. Ok sleep time.
BTW my sleep scehedue is still weird but getting better cuz I odnt have to work as much for now. Also store food is too expensive. I noticed how my notes here are getting more tired and less practical.... yeah.

2025-12-14

Rest

I keep forgetting that i need to rest. I usually end up falling alseep but then I dont know what else to do so I just try to work. What a vibe

2025-12-13

Caffeine + food

This isn't medical advice or anything like that... For me when I get caffeine I also have to eat a lot of carb and drink a lot of water too. I usually just make egg with stuff or eat bread. I made egg fried rice and it's yummy. I really like salmon but its too expensive. When I stay awake for too long my stomach really hurts so I have to take more caffeine and eat more

2025-12-12

Doing stuffff

I felt kinda sick yesterday so i forgot to write here. Oh well. Today I reorangized myt room and drank soda. Yummy. Also i made some more music

2025-12-10

How I do flashcards

I use Anki. I have to do a lot of new cards (100) becaue otherwise I forget too much. Also I review the deck with autoadvance on with 1 second timer. Relearning steps is set to 10s. This helps me know the information immediately instead of casually.

2025-12-09

Don't change it because it's not working

Usuaully if a project spec is changed because it's not working, then it is really not good. But project specs change all the time, so it's only when you change the spec because the project is just not working. For example, you write software using an very new external library. Turns out there's some memory leaks/hard to fix bugs, and you have to wait months for the next patch. So you have to rewrite it to use a different, more mature library. Not speaking from experience or anything...

2025-12-08

Language learning

I found this in my old notes. This is my idea on learning a language:

Pronunciation
Word Recognition & Writing
Listening to Real Speech
Speaking without freezing
Intermediate Platau
Reading real books/news
Writing speed & Coherence


These are the real challenges that involve learning a language. They are not ordered. I agree with my old notes because each one of these topics is focused on for several weeks and months. These are just some loose ideas, just adequate descriptions

2025-12-07

stress

i dont really have anything to talk about besides extreme stress. sometimes it sucks, but then i forget about it. but maybe i get more unhealthy? i dont realy know. but yeah stress is bad unitl something else happens? i have no Idea what i'm talking about.

2025-12-06

caffeine beverage

I make milk thing - guvaua powder - milk tea - keep in fridge and use sometimes for caffeine spike - have to eat and drink lot of water to stay awake
I dont actually suggest making this since its around 800-1000mg of caffeine in the bottle

2025-12-05

Feeling sickly

I realized today that I don't feel sick, just sickly. Like kind of weak and unfocused(honestly everyday). But it only appens during day time. At night I get all my stuff done. I think in the day I should drink caffeine or stay in bed. Overextending myself (which i kind of have been) during the day could get really bad. Anyway it is winter so it's better to conserve energy. I just hope that I don't get too stressed out because then it might get worse, but I have medication. Also I tried to do the VR desktop but it did not work and i didn't have to time to find why. Wow what a great blog where i complain about health.... i usually write these right before i go to sleep so this is usually all I have energy to think about? whatever

2025-12-04

VR desktop

I only have a quest 2 headset because it was cheap. Having a huge monitor sounds like a good idea and being able to look around the space is interesting. Briefly putting on VR for a small break helps breaks my focus away from work for a bit so its pretty refreshing (it feels like going outside for a break, which sounds sad. but it works). Just having big monitors is kind of ok. Being able to walk around the screens is pretty cool. uh...． idk. Cool input device

2025-12-03

Work pressure

With work today there is quite a lot of pressure. When I talk about it the pressure goes away, but it does not make the work go away. Pretty much all the pressure is used towards work instead. That's why I don't really talk about work. Except here but it is in a abstract context, so it's ok.

2025-12-02

The best way to sleep

I still haven't found the best way to sleep. There is a lot involved and I am usually too tired to make my bed properly or my head starts hurting again and I have to put pressure on it.
When I do make my bed I usually put a very large pillow I can lean on as a center support. I have to sleep on my side because of back pain so having a big pillow helps me stay straight. To support my shoulder I usually put a pillow or plushie under it. From that I have a pillow for my head and neck. This can be the most difficult part to get right. I try to lean back a little bit so my my shoulder or neck do not hurt. My neck hurts more so it is probably not healthy. For my legs i usually put a pillow between my legs so my back stays supported. Finally, I put a weighted blanket down and maybe another blanket if it's needed.
The quality of my sleep is confusing. If I feel better or worse I rarely know immedaitely. Usually when I have poor sleep I feel ok for 5 hours, and then I become very tired. Sadly, most days I have to sleep in a bad position that puts pressure on my head to make headache better. I have not found a better way to do this. I never feel tired or awake. At least I do not have nightmares

2025-11-30

feeling alone and focused

Being alone a lot of the time makes it so when i interact with other people it feels very strange. How I focus most days completely changes after that
when I'm alone I can usually focus better but i don't know what the expense of this is. I can focus better, so feeling lonely never felt like a issue. but that feeling when I meet other people makes me think that I am doing something wrong. maybe there are issues that are more serious that I can't see when I'm alone? is it worth it?
But im pretty sure i can have healthy relationships while focusing. They are not mutually exclusive

2025-11-27

really tired

I was going to talk about something but it is kind of sad so I didn't want to.
Right now I am extremely tired. But I'm not going to sleep. Sometimes feeling tired doesn't make me want to go to sleep. I feel like I just ignore it even though my thoughts get slower and I make more mistakes. This is usually because I do all my work really late at night so everything is kind of crammed to the end of the day. This is honestly not healthy at all but that hasn't stopped it from continueing. In the long term this is probably not sustainable but it can be fixed, so whatever. Anyway, things are changing, and that's all I care about.